Ok I know..this one has no journal entry.....but I had to do it so that the set up would be correct. I will probably be writing a few of my stories today...I hurt myself last night..so I'm out of commission...can't go do anything fun...darn it. Don't worry...i'm fine!! Thanks love to all!!
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End of Part 22
I must have looked from the house and back to Jasper about 10 times before he started laughing at me. "Let's finish this book so that I can have my wife back." He said as he smiled down at me.
I kissed him one more time before getting an evil look in my eyes. "Race you to the house?" I asked.
"Alright, no cheating. Ready....GO!!" He said as he ran and jumped effortlessly over the river.
I stood there watching him, I knew that once this journal was done I would do everything in my power to return to the devoted, caring, loving wife that Jasper deserved. I wouldn't let anything come between us, and felt terrible guilt for letting anything cause any distance form between us.
"I thought we were racing?" Jasper called from the other side of the river.
"Ohhh we are!!" I said as I walked back a few steps to get a running start. I jumped over the river, turning my body as I flew into a pirouette. I spun over and landed about 10 feet away from the house.
I ran to the edge and slapped it lightly as I turned around. "I win." I said as Jasper ran over to my side, picking me up and spinning me around.
"You're so beautiful." He said as he hugged me tight.
"I'm glad you think so." I said as I kissed him.
"Are you two going to come in or do I have to get the hose?" Emmett said from the window beside us.
We both started laughing as Jasper set me down, taking my hand in his. "Well, let's go read this thing. We're nearly done, there wasn't much left." Jasper said as he held the door open for me.
Part 23
I walked by and stopped just in front of him, rising up on my toes enough to kiss him. His arms wrapped around me, pulling me so close that I wondered if our bodies wouldn't meld together.
We pulled away when I heard someone laugh quietly.
I spun around, noticing that Jasper's arms never left my body. I looked and noticed that Bella was sitting in the living room, sitting next to Edward. His arm was wrapped around her shoulders, pulling her close to him.
I turned and smiled up at Jazz before I took off bounding across the room and stopping directly in front of Bella.
"Bella!? What are you doing here?" I asked as I knelt down to hug her gently.
"I missed you all, I wanted to come see everyone. I hope I'm not interrupting or anything." She said as she looked from me to Edward.
"No, not at all." I said as I stood up and looked at Edward.
"Did you tell her everything?" I thought.
"No, I wanted to ask you first." He said out loud.
"What's going on?" Bella asked.
"Well, what Do you know about my past Bella?" I asked as I sat down next to her.
"Only what James," Bella shivered at the sound of his name. "Only what he told me that night."
Edward pulled her tight against him, resting her head against his chest. I knew that she was still traumatized by what happened in Arizona, she told me what he had said while torturing her.
I nodded, smiling up at her. "The quick version is, my family...no my father was scared of me because of my visions. He had me admitted into a mental hospital, I don't know for sure, but I think he thought they could help..or cure me. My mother and sister came to visit me twice, but they moved out of town. I'm not sure if they came to visit anymore, I haven't read anything about them lately." I said as I watched her face.
"Oh Alice." Bella said as she pulled away from Edward and hugged me tightly.
"Thank you." I said as I hugged her. "The doctor in charge of me was a Dr. Gordon, everyone just called him Dr. G. He was very protective of me, he took me as a special case."
"Now, this is where things get a bit strange." I said as I smiled at her again. "I was sitting outside one day when a blond hair man came over and started talking to me. He seemed like he was a nice person, but when we started talking Dr. G came out and yelled for me to get inside. I asked questions about who this man was, but Dr. G just told me that his name was James." I said as I watched her eyes widen, her jaw drop slightly.
"Yes, that is what James was telling you about. It seemed that he found me. Dr. Gordon didn't want me to go outside anymore without him, or someone else. He said that James was dangerous, that it would be best if I stayed away from him. I didn't understand why, and Dr. Gordon wouldn't talk about any of that anymore. I did listen, I stayed away..I kept myself inside. The last entry was that I was going outside...I don't think this is a good thing." I said as I shook my head.
"Oh my goodness." Bella said, her eyes wide. "Wow, that's a lot to take in."
"OHHH and I didn't tell you the best part!!! You know how I don't remember who changed me correct?" I asked as I looked at her.
Bella nodded quickly. "I think it was Dr. Gordon. I don't know why, but I think he was the one. When we left off last time, I was walking outside with one of the girls. I knew I wasn't suppose to go out, but I was curious..and well I never listen to people when they tell me not to do something." I said as I laughed.
"That's the truth." Carlisle said as he laughed.
"No doubt!!" Emmett said as he smiled.
"Always has been." Esme said as she walked into the room and sat on the couch.
"That's part of why I love her." Jasper said as he came over and sat on the arm of the couch. He wrapped his arms around me, and slid onto the couch next to me. It was a bit of a tight fit with four of us, but it worked.
I snugged into Jasper's chest, resting my head against his shoulder. I turned my head so that I could kiss the scar on the inside of his neck. He sighed as he hugged me tightly.
"I love you." I said against his neck.
"More then my own life." He said as he kissed my forehead.
"You two make me sick." Emmett said as he and Rosalie walked into the room. He went and sat in a over stuffed chair, pulling Rosalie down into his lap.
Carlisle went and sat next to Esme, and just like that the entire family was gathered again. I looked around, everyone had their 'other half.' At this moment, everything was as it should be, everyone was happy..complete.
"Esme?" I asked. She turned to face me, her eyes brightening. "Would you mind?"
"No love, I would he honored." She said.
I pulled away and kissed Jasper's chin. "I'll be right back...have to go get the book."
"Hurry back." He said as he kissed me sweetly.
I smiled at him and took off running up the stairs, slowing at the door to Jasper's office. I pushed the door slightly and walked in, looking at each spot where I sat while reading the first entries. I smiled to myself as I walked over and took the small, black book in my hands.
I flipped through it, noticing the smear marks on certain pages where my tears had smeared the ink. The scratch marks where I crossed out my thoughts, and the tattered pages where different fingers pulled at the corners.
I flipped to the last few pages, finding the last entry that was read. It looked like there were only a few entries left..two or three possibly. I knew this meant that I would have closure, I would officially know most of my past.
"Alice?" Jasper said quietly from the doorway.
I cradled the book to my chest as I turned slowly to look at him.
"Are you alright?" He asked, concern flooding the room.
"I'm fine, just a bit sad this is all ending." I said. "Is that dumb, part of me doesn't want it to end."
His arms wrapped around my shoulders, pulling me against his chest. "No it is not dumb, you are finding out who you were. Not who you are, but who you were when you were younger. I forget some times that you don't know your past, but now you do...and I think that's amazing."
"Thank you Jazz, you are right. This is not who I am now, I know who I am and nothing will change that. Nothing will change how much I love you, that's one thing I know." I said quietly.
"That is true, that is one thing that will never change."
"Are you two going to come back down?" Edward called from the living room.
"Yes, we're coming." I yelled back down to him.
I took his hand in mine, squeezing it gently. "Come on, they are all waiting for us."
He leaned down, kissing from my jaw to my lips. "Alright, let's go."
I stood there, looking at him. Love and.....need were flooding out of him. I smiled at him, laughing quietly. "Let's go finish..then we will be alone." I purred.
He took a deep breath and let it out slowly. "Alright, let's go." He said as he pulled my hand, leading us out the door.
j_b
End of Part 22
I must have looked from the house and back to Jasper about 10 times before he started laughing at me. "Let's finish this book so that I can have my wife back." He said as he smiled down at me.
I kissed him one more time before getting an evil look in my eyes. "Race you to the house?" I asked.
"Alright, no cheating. Ready....GO!!" He said as he ran and jumped effortlessly over the river.
I stood there watching him, I knew that once this journal was done I would do everything in my power to return to the devoted, caring, loving wife that Jasper deserved. I wouldn't let anything come between us, and felt terrible guilt for letting anything cause any distance form between us.
"I thought we were racing?" Jasper called from the other side of the river.
"Ohhh we are!!" I said as I walked back a few steps to get a running start. I jumped over the river, turning my body as I flew into a pirouette. I spun over and landed about 10 feet away from the house.
I ran to the edge and slapped it lightly as I turned around. "I win." I said as Jasper ran over to my side, picking me up and spinning me around.
"You're so beautiful." He said as he hugged me tight.
"I'm glad you think so." I said as I kissed him.
"Are you two going to come in or do I have to get the hose?" Emmett said from the window beside us.
We both started laughing as Jasper set me down, taking my hand in his. "Well, let's go read this thing. We're nearly done, there wasn't much left." Jasper said as he held the door open for me.
Part 23
I walked by and stopped just in front of him, rising up on my toes enough to kiss him. His arms wrapped around me, pulling me so close that I wondered if our bodies wouldn't meld together.
We pulled away when I heard someone laugh quietly.
I spun around, noticing that Jasper's arms never left my body. I looked and noticed that Bella was sitting in the living room, sitting next to Edward. His arm was wrapped around her shoulders, pulling her close to him.
I turned and smiled up at Jazz before I took off bounding across the room and stopping directly in front of Bella.
"Bella!? What are you doing here?" I asked as I knelt down to hug her gently.
"I missed you all, I wanted to come see everyone. I hope I'm not interrupting or anything." She said as she looked from me to Edward.
"No, not at all." I said as I stood up and looked at Edward.
"Did you tell her everything?" I thought.
"No, I wanted to ask you first." He said out loud.
"What's going on?" Bella asked.
"Well, what Do you know about my past Bella?" I asked as I sat down next to her.
"Only what James," Bella shivered at the sound of his name. "Only what he told me that night."
Edward pulled her tight against him, resting her head against his chest. I knew that she was still traumatized by what happened in Arizona, she told me what he had said while torturing her.
I nodded, smiling up at her. "The quick version is, my family...no my father was scared of me because of my visions. He had me admitted into a mental hospital, I don't know for sure, but I think he thought they could help..or cure me. My mother and sister came to visit me twice, but they moved out of town. I'm not sure if they came to visit anymore, I haven't read anything about them lately." I said as I watched her face.
"Oh Alice." Bella said as she pulled away from Edward and hugged me tightly.
"Thank you." I said as I hugged her. "The doctor in charge of me was a Dr. Gordon, everyone just called him Dr. G. He was very protective of me, he took me as a special case."
"Now, this is where things get a bit strange." I said as I smiled at her again. "I was sitting outside one day when a blond hair man came over and started talking to me. He seemed like he was a nice person, but when we started talking Dr. G came out and yelled for me to get inside. I asked questions about who this man was, but Dr. G just told me that his name was James." I said as I watched her eyes widen, her jaw drop slightly.
"Yes, that is what James was telling you about. It seemed that he found me. Dr. Gordon didn't want me to go outside anymore without him, or someone else. He said that James was dangerous, that it would be best if I stayed away from him. I didn't understand why, and Dr. Gordon wouldn't talk about any of that anymore. I did listen, I stayed away..I kept myself inside. The last entry was that I was going outside...I don't think this is a good thing." I said as I shook my head.
"Oh my goodness." Bella said, her eyes wide. "Wow, that's a lot to take in."
"OHHH and I didn't tell you the best part!!! You know how I don't remember who changed me correct?" I asked as I looked at her.
Bella nodded quickly. "I think it was Dr. Gordon. I don't know why, but I think he was the one. When we left off last time, I was walking outside with one of the girls. I knew I wasn't suppose to go out, but I was curious..and well I never listen to people when they tell me not to do something." I said as I laughed.
"That's the truth." Carlisle said as he laughed.
"No doubt!!" Emmett said as he smiled.
"Always has been." Esme said as she walked into the room and sat on the couch.
"That's part of why I love her." Jasper said as he came over and sat on the arm of the couch. He wrapped his arms around me, and slid onto the couch next to me. It was a bit of a tight fit with four of us, but it worked.
I snugged into Jasper's chest, resting my head against his shoulder. I turned my head so that I could kiss the scar on the inside of his neck. He sighed as he hugged me tightly.
"I love you." I said against his neck.
"More then my own life." He said as he kissed my forehead.
"You two make me sick." Emmett said as he and Rosalie walked into the room. He went and sat in a over stuffed chair, pulling Rosalie down into his lap.
Carlisle went and sat next to Esme, and just like that the entire family was gathered again. I looked around, everyone had their 'other half.' At this moment, everything was as it should be, everyone was happy..complete.
"Esme?" I asked. She turned to face me, her eyes brightening. "Would you mind?"
"No love, I would he honored." She said.
I pulled away and kissed Jasper's chin. "I'll be right back...have to go get the book."
"Hurry back." He said as he kissed me sweetly.
I smiled at him and took off running up the stairs, slowing at the door to Jasper's office. I pushed the door slightly and walked in, looking at each spot where I sat while reading the first entries. I smiled to myself as I walked over and took the small, black book in my hands.
I flipped through it, noticing the smear marks on certain pages where my tears had smeared the ink. The scratch marks where I crossed out my thoughts, and the tattered pages where different fingers pulled at the corners.
I flipped to the last few pages, finding the last entry that was read. It looked like there were only a few entries left..two or three possibly. I knew this meant that I would have closure, I would officially know most of my past.
"Alice?" Jasper said quietly from the doorway.
I cradled the book to my chest as I turned slowly to look at him.
"Are you alright?" He asked, concern flooding the room.
"I'm fine, just a bit sad this is all ending." I said. "Is that dumb, part of me doesn't want it to end."
His arms wrapped around my shoulders, pulling me against his chest. "No it is not dumb, you are finding out who you were. Not who you are, but who you were when you were younger. I forget some times that you don't know your past, but now you do...and I think that's amazing."
"Thank you Jazz, you are right. This is not who I am now, I know who I am and nothing will change that. Nothing will change how much I love you, that's one thing I know." I said quietly.
"That is true, that is one thing that will never change."
"Are you two going to come back down?" Edward called from the living room.
"Yes, we're coming." I yelled back down to him.
I took his hand in mine, squeezing it gently. "Come on, they are all waiting for us."
He leaned down, kissing from my jaw to my lips. "Alright, let's go."
I stood there, looking at him. Love and.....need were flooding out of him. I smiled at him, laughing quietly. "Let's go finish..then we will be alone." I purred.
He took a deep breath and let it out slowly. "Alright, let's go." He said as he pulled my hand, leading us out the door.