Last one for tonight, getting tired. Thanks to everyone!!!
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End of Part 25
Jasper reached out and pulled me back into his arms, moving so that I fit just perfectly into the hallow of his arms.
"I would be honored." Esme said as she reached for the book.
I relaxed, closing my eyes again. I realized that I did this for two reasons, the first is because it helped me concentrate on what was being read. The second reason...I couldn't stand the looks from my own family.
"This entry only has a few lines." Esme said as she turned the page over to see if there was something else written on the other side. "There are a few more entries, but this one is just a few lines long." She said again.
"It is dated November 3rd." She said as she sat back, resting her head against Carlisle.
"In the last entry I wondered about someone reading my journal. I know it seems like I was a bit paranoid about the whole thing, but yesterday I came back from lunch to see my entire room had been turned upside down. The locked drawer was open, and my journal was on my bed. I guess it's not a mystery anymore...someone is reading my thoughts, my private journal. I will have to look into this more. Oh Dr. G is coming, have to go."
Esme stopped reading and I knew that everyone was watching me. This was too much for me, I couldn't handle all of this. Maybe Esme was right, maybe this was taking it's toll on me. I took a deep breath, jumped to my feet and ran out the front before anyone could react. I just wanted to get away...away from my past...away from everything.
Part 26
I ran as fast as I could, ignoring all the yells and hollers I could hear from behind me. I ran out of the house and down the steps, kicking my shoes off as I began running.
I knew that they all would be running out of the house by now, all following my scent so that they could find me. I knew that I really didn't have a chance of them leaving me alone, or of getting away before they caught me..but I wanted to try.
I ran down the drive, out to the highway beyond. I stood and watched a truck drive at me, I hoped that they would stop..that they would take me with them.
"ALICE!!" Edward Yelled from behind me.
"Please, come back!" Jasper yelled, the sound breaking my heart.
I turned to face the drive, my heart pulling me back to the family..but my brain was screaming that I had to go...get away and focus myself for a while.
I turned back and saw the truck slowing, my mind racing trying to figure out what I was doing. I was about to start walking in the trucks direction when I heard the rest of the family join in in my search. I was surprised to hear Bella's voice join in, she sounded out of breath..oh...she had been running.
I raised my hand and waved it at the truck driver, letting him know that I was no longer interested in the ride. I turned and faced the woods, just waiting for Edward to run out.
He ran out a second later and grabbed my shoulders, shaking them violently. "What were you thinking!" He screamed into my face.
I heard a deep growl that I could identify instantly. "Let.......her.........go" Jasper growled.
Edward turned and returned the growl, he was still shaking me so hard my neck was slapping back and forth.
"Edward, let her go." Carlisle said as he exited the woods.
Edward turned to glare at Carlisle, but at the same moment Bella walked out with Esme. His expression changed from one of anger to one of horror as he realized he was shaking me so hard. He pulled his hands away from me, letting me fall to the ground.
Jasper was instantly above me, crouching over me..as if he would protect me if Edward tried anything again.
"What did I do?" Edward screamed in his thoughts as he looked from me to Bella.
I used Jasper's leg to help me stand, ignoring his hand as it reached out to stop me. "It's ok Jazz, I swear." I said as I ran my hand up his arm.
I went and stood next to Edward, taking his hand into mine. I pulled on his hand so that he had to look at me.
"I'm sorry. Please don't beat yourself up...this is my mistake. You were trying to stop me." I said as I moved to stay in his line of vision.
"I..I didn't mean. I'm sorry." He said as he pulled his hand back and moved over to Bella, talking to her quietly.
"I am ruining our family." I said as I felt all my strength leave my body as it slumped to the ground.
I heard movement, but closed my eyes..wishing I could cry the tears that I felt I deserved. I knew that it was Esme, Carlisle, Jasper, Emmett and Bella that had all moved over to try and comfort me.
"Please don't comfort me, I...I ran because it was too much. I can't handle sympathy right now. Please?" I pleaded.
"Let's go." Jasper said as he began to pick me up in his arms.
"No Jazz, please. I just need a few hours. I promise I will not leave town, I will stay close. I just need time to think, it's been too much..I know you are afraid for me love, but I need to do this alone. I promise you that I will come home, just let me go for a while." I begged.
Jasper's expression changed, he was trying to control his emotions. I knew him better then he thought because I touched his shoulder and he accidentally let everything through. He was afraid, hurt, scared, confused, concerned and on edge.
I ran my hand down his arm as I smiled at him. I raised myself up and kissed the bottom of his jaw. "Jazz, thank you. I know you care, and you know how much I love you.....but I need to go alone. Please don't come looking." I pleaded.
I turned and looked at everyone else. "Please, just let me go by myself. I need to think, to go through all of this. I will return, and I will take my phone...not that I will answer for a while..but understand please." I said as I saw them all look at each other.
"Thank you." I said as I hugged Jasper and turned to hug everyone else as I left.
I smiled at them as I walked through them and ran down the driveway, stopping in the house to grab my cell phone. It was sitting on the table, next to the journal....I was just going to take the phone but decided to grab the journal as I ran out the back door and out to the woods.
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End of Part 25
Jasper reached out and pulled me back into his arms, moving so that I fit just perfectly into the hallow of his arms.
"I would be honored." Esme said as she reached for the book.
I relaxed, closing my eyes again. I realized that I did this for two reasons, the first is because it helped me concentrate on what was being read. The second reason...I couldn't stand the looks from my own family.
"This entry only has a few lines." Esme said as she turned the page over to see if there was something else written on the other side. "There are a few more entries, but this one is just a few lines long." She said again.
"It is dated November 3rd." She said as she sat back, resting her head against Carlisle.
"In the last entry I wondered about someone reading my journal. I know it seems like I was a bit paranoid about the whole thing, but yesterday I came back from lunch to see my entire room had been turned upside down. The locked drawer was open, and my journal was on my bed. I guess it's not a mystery anymore...someone is reading my thoughts, my private journal. I will have to look into this more. Oh Dr. G is coming, have to go."
Esme stopped reading and I knew that everyone was watching me. This was too much for me, I couldn't handle all of this. Maybe Esme was right, maybe this was taking it's toll on me. I took a deep breath, jumped to my feet and ran out the front before anyone could react. I just wanted to get away...away from my past...away from everything.
Part 26
I ran as fast as I could, ignoring all the yells and hollers I could hear from behind me. I ran out of the house and down the steps, kicking my shoes off as I began running.
I knew that they all would be running out of the house by now, all following my scent so that they could find me. I knew that I really didn't have a chance of them leaving me alone, or of getting away before they caught me..but I wanted to try.
I ran down the drive, out to the highway beyond. I stood and watched a truck drive at me, I hoped that they would stop..that they would take me with them.
"ALICE!!" Edward Yelled from behind me.
"Please, come back!" Jasper yelled, the sound breaking my heart.
I turned to face the drive, my heart pulling me back to the family..but my brain was screaming that I had to go...get away and focus myself for a while.
I turned back and saw the truck slowing, my mind racing trying to figure out what I was doing. I was about to start walking in the trucks direction when I heard the rest of the family join in in my search. I was surprised to hear Bella's voice join in, she sounded out of breath..oh...she had been running.
I raised my hand and waved it at the truck driver, letting him know that I was no longer interested in the ride. I turned and faced the woods, just waiting for Edward to run out.
He ran out a second later and grabbed my shoulders, shaking them violently. "What were you thinking!" He screamed into my face.
I heard a deep growl that I could identify instantly. "Let.......her.........go" Jasper growled.
Edward turned and returned the growl, he was still shaking me so hard my neck was slapping back and forth.
"Edward, let her go." Carlisle said as he exited the woods.
Edward turned to glare at Carlisle, but at the same moment Bella walked out with Esme. His expression changed from one of anger to one of horror as he realized he was shaking me so hard. He pulled his hands away from me, letting me fall to the ground.
Jasper was instantly above me, crouching over me..as if he would protect me if Edward tried anything again.
"What did I do?" Edward screamed in his thoughts as he looked from me to Bella.
I used Jasper's leg to help me stand, ignoring his hand as it reached out to stop me. "It's ok Jazz, I swear." I said as I ran my hand up his arm.
I went and stood next to Edward, taking his hand into mine. I pulled on his hand so that he had to look at me.
"I'm sorry. Please don't beat yourself up...this is my mistake. You were trying to stop me." I said as I moved to stay in his line of vision.
"I..I didn't mean. I'm sorry." He said as he pulled his hand back and moved over to Bella, talking to her quietly.
"I am ruining our family." I said as I felt all my strength leave my body as it slumped to the ground.
I heard movement, but closed my eyes..wishing I could cry the tears that I felt I deserved. I knew that it was Esme, Carlisle, Jasper, Emmett and Bella that had all moved over to try and comfort me.
"Please don't comfort me, I...I ran because it was too much. I can't handle sympathy right now. Please?" I pleaded.
"Let's go." Jasper said as he began to pick me up in his arms.
"No Jazz, please. I just need a few hours. I promise I will not leave town, I will stay close. I just need time to think, it's been too much..I know you are afraid for me love, but I need to do this alone. I promise you that I will come home, just let me go for a while." I begged.
Jasper's expression changed, he was trying to control his emotions. I knew him better then he thought because I touched his shoulder and he accidentally let everything through. He was afraid, hurt, scared, confused, concerned and on edge.
I ran my hand down his arm as I smiled at him. I raised myself up and kissed the bottom of his jaw. "Jazz, thank you. I know you care, and you know how much I love you.....but I need to go alone. Please don't come looking." I pleaded.
I turned and looked at everyone else. "Please, just let me go by myself. I need to think, to go through all of this. I will return, and I will take my phone...not that I will answer for a while..but understand please." I said as I saw them all look at each other.
"Thank you." I said as I hugged Jasper and turned to hug everyone else as I left.
I smiled at them as I walked through them and ran down the driveway, stopping in the house to grab my cell phone. It was sitting on the table, next to the journal....I was just going to take the phone but decided to grab the journal as I ran out the back door and out to the woods.