So I know I said I was going to keep all 4 stories going but I don't know...SO I think I'm going to end this one..either this entry or the next. Thanks to everyone since this was one of my first stories.
love
j_b
End of Part 27
I was so obsessed with what was going on in my past, that I had forgotten my future...forgotten my now.
I sighed as I lay back down on the rock, thinking about everyone. I knew that Jasper had been so worried about me, so focused on keeping me happy and being with me that he hadn't done anything for himself in a few weeks. Edward...oh Edward. He and I always had each other...always knew everything that was going on in the others life. I had no clue what was going on in his life, what was going on with Bella. Bella, my best friend. I was not being a very good friend...until earlier tonight I hadn't seen her except for in school which was now over.
Emmett...oh Emmett. The big bear of a brother who was always willing to protect me from anything..but he couldn't protect me from myself. Rosalie...we were close as sisters went but as friends..there was always a stress there. I felt bad for having to run away from her..leave her to try and figure out what was going on..try to keep Edward and Jasper from going after me.
Carlisle..my father. I knew he would do anything for me. I knew that he cared for each and every one of us as if we were his children, he loved us all and I wondered if I had been fair to him.
Esme.........Oh Esme. I knew she was worried about me, that this was all taking it's toll on me. I would have argued..I didn't think it was effecting me, but I was wrong.
The phone rang again, I turned my head to see Edwards face smiling at me. I assumed that he and Jasper were near each other. He had to have known that Jasper just called, why would he think I would answer his call?
I reached to hit the end button when I saw the journal lying on the rock, it's pages whipping in the wind. I realized I hated this book, I hated that I was finding out everything...hated how it changed me and was effecting my family...I hated this little book more then anything in the world.
Part 28
I was about to throw the journal into the woods when my cell beeped to let me know that I had another message. I flipped it open, knowing who it would be before the message began.
"Alice, please call home. I...I am..I need to tell you how sorry I am. I didn't mean to. Please just call home, Jazz is a mess. Please." Edward's voice trailed off and ended.
I set the book down, realizing that maybe it would be best if I just called and let them know I was alright. I picked up my phone, flipping through names until I found Bella's. I knew I should call Jasper or Edward, but Bella would not push like the others would.
"ALICE?" Bella cried as she answered the phone.
"Hey Bella."
"Oh Alice, where are you?" She begged.
"Is it Alice!?" I heard Jasper yell from across the room.
"Bella, please don't let them take your phone. Just walk outside or walk away please?" I pleaded.
I heard her get up, people arguing and knowing Bella she was shaking her head as she walked, pushing her way through all of them to get away. "Ok I'm outside. What's going on? Where are you? Are you coming home?" She said quickly.
"I'm fine Bella, I'm...well I'm somewhere I go to think..but don't tell them that please? I just had to get away, have to think through life before I come back. Bella, will you do me a favor?"
"Yes, anything."
"Tell Edward I forgive him, I know he didn't mean it." I said quietly.
"Oh Alice, he's such a mess. He feels horrible, he blames all of this on himself." She said, sadness filling her voice.
"I know he does, please tell him I forgive him. Bella, one more thing. Please ask Jasper to be patient, tell him I love him very much but he needs to let me be for a while. I will be home tonight, but I have to do a few things first."
She was about to respond when I heard Edward and Jasper arguing next to her. A second later I heard Jasper's voice through the phone.
"Love?"
I wanted to answer him, but the lump that had moved into my throat stopped me from speaking.
"Alice? Please love, please respond." He begged.
"Jazz." I whispered.
"Oh...Alice! Oh my love where are you? Are you alright?" He asked, I knew that he was panicking.
"Jazz, I'm fine. I will be home in a few hours. I just have to figure out a few things. I'm so sorry I ran from you." I said as the lump returned in my throat.
"I don't care, please just come home to me."
"I will, just give me a few hours please. Will you do me a favor please?" I asked.
"Anything." Jasper replied.
"Tell everyone I'm sorry, tell Edward that I don't blame him...that I forgive him. Will you do that for me please?"
"He heard the entire thing, don't worry. He knows, he wants to talk to you." Jasper said as I heard Edward arguing in the background.
"No Jazz, please. I have to go, tell everyone I'll be home. Jasper, I love you." I said as I ended the call, crushing my phone in my hand.
I laid back down on the rock and cried myself out...if it were possible for me to cry. I released all of the emotions that were built up inside.
I must have been there for a few hours before I calmed myself enough to focus on what as going on now. I saw the pieces of my phone scattered around the rock, tiny fragments laying on the journal.
I reached over, grabbing the journal and shaking the pieces of phone off of it. I pulled my legs up against my chest, the journal resting on my knees.
I opened the book and began reading out loud, even though I was the only one to listen.
It was Dated November 14th, the writing blurred by something.
"Dr. G is acting strange, I know that someone is reading my journal..and I honestly think it's him. He seems to know what I am thinking, or seems to be everywhere I go. I thought it might just be coincidence at first...but now I know that isn't true. It seems like he was protecting me at first, like he was always looking out for me...but now it seems like he is watching me..it makes me nervous.
I had a vision of James returning a few days ago...I told Dr. Gordon about it and since then it seems like I am never alone. Every where I go someone is with me, I can not even go to the bathroom alone. Someone always has an excuse to be where I was. I was sure it was on someones orders but whenever I asked everyone played dumb, like they had no idea what I was talking about.
This afternoon I was walking through the halls when I heard someone call my name from one of the teaching rooms. I turned and walked to the door way, trying to figure out who would have been in the room.
"Mary, could you come in please?" The voice called from the back of the room.
I knew it would be rude to ignore whomever was calling for me, so I took a deep breath and walked into the room.
The first thing I realized was that all of the lights were off in this room, it was like walking into night. The second thing I noticed was a deep guttural sound that seemed to echo off the walls, filling the room with sound.
"I have waited for you." The voice called.
I turned quickly to the sound, finally recognizing the voice....James. As I thought his name he walked out of a shadow, stalking towards me slowly.
"You have been the hardest catch I've ever had." He told me as he came over and put his hands on my upper arms, squeezing a bit too tight.
"Catch?" I whispered, unable to make my voice any louder.
"Yes, catch. You caught my eye the first time I saw you, but he's been doing his best to keep you from me."
"Who? What are you talking about?"
"Oh you haven't figured him out yet...this will be fun." He said as he grabbed me and pulled me against his chest, his hand stretching my head to the side causing a burning sensation in my neck.
"Who?" I asked again.
"Me." I heard from behind me, James let my neck go the strange sounds filling the room once again.
"Alice, please go to your room. Lock yourself in and wait until I come find you." Dr. Gordon said as he walked into the room.
I went to move, to get away but James still had his grip on my neck. I screamed in pain as my neck muscles stretched, burning.
"Let her go." Dr. G told James.
"No...make me." James replied.
Dr. Gordon threw himself at me and in that second James let go. Once I was free I ran out through the door and down the hall to my room. Once in I locked the door behind me, throwing myself on the bed, tears flowing continuously down my cheeks.
What was going on?? Who...what was Dr. G?? Why was I scared?? What was going to happen between him and James??"
That was all that was written...for some reason the journal entry was done. I turned the page making sure that there wasn't another entry on the last page. There was something written there, but it was someone else's hand writing....
I knew I had to go home, I had to tell everyone what just happened. I had to tell them we reached the end of the book, that there was another entry from someone else....that I was sorry. That I loved all of them and would not do this to them again....to beg them to forgive me.
love
j_b
End of Part 27
I was so obsessed with what was going on in my past, that I had forgotten my future...forgotten my now.
I sighed as I lay back down on the rock, thinking about everyone. I knew that Jasper had been so worried about me, so focused on keeping me happy and being with me that he hadn't done anything for himself in a few weeks. Edward...oh Edward. He and I always had each other...always knew everything that was going on in the others life. I had no clue what was going on in his life, what was going on with Bella. Bella, my best friend. I was not being a very good friend...until earlier tonight I hadn't seen her except for in school which was now over.
Emmett...oh Emmett. The big bear of a brother who was always willing to protect me from anything..but he couldn't protect me from myself. Rosalie...we were close as sisters went but as friends..there was always a stress there. I felt bad for having to run away from her..leave her to try and figure out what was going on..try to keep Edward and Jasper from going after me.
Carlisle..my father. I knew he would do anything for me. I knew that he cared for each and every one of us as if we were his children, he loved us all and I wondered if I had been fair to him.
Esme.........Oh Esme. I knew she was worried about me, that this was all taking it's toll on me. I would have argued..I didn't think it was effecting me, but I was wrong.
The phone rang again, I turned my head to see Edwards face smiling at me. I assumed that he and Jasper were near each other. He had to have known that Jasper just called, why would he think I would answer his call?
I reached to hit the end button when I saw the journal lying on the rock, it's pages whipping in the wind. I realized I hated this book, I hated that I was finding out everything...hated how it changed me and was effecting my family...I hated this little book more then anything in the world.
Part 28
I was about to throw the journal into the woods when my cell beeped to let me know that I had another message. I flipped it open, knowing who it would be before the message began.
"Alice, please call home. I...I am..I need to tell you how sorry I am. I didn't mean to. Please just call home, Jazz is a mess. Please." Edward's voice trailed off and ended.
I set the book down, realizing that maybe it would be best if I just called and let them know I was alright. I picked up my phone, flipping through names until I found Bella's. I knew I should call Jasper or Edward, but Bella would not push like the others would.
"ALICE?" Bella cried as she answered the phone.
"Hey Bella."
"Oh Alice, where are you?" She begged.
"Is it Alice!?" I heard Jasper yell from across the room.
"Bella, please don't let them take your phone. Just walk outside or walk away please?" I pleaded.
I heard her get up, people arguing and knowing Bella she was shaking her head as she walked, pushing her way through all of them to get away. "Ok I'm outside. What's going on? Where are you? Are you coming home?" She said quickly.
"I'm fine Bella, I'm...well I'm somewhere I go to think..but don't tell them that please? I just had to get away, have to think through life before I come back. Bella, will you do me a favor?"
"Yes, anything."
"Tell Edward I forgive him, I know he didn't mean it." I said quietly.
"Oh Alice, he's such a mess. He feels horrible, he blames all of this on himself." She said, sadness filling her voice.
"I know he does, please tell him I forgive him. Bella, one more thing. Please ask Jasper to be patient, tell him I love him very much but he needs to let me be for a while. I will be home tonight, but I have to do a few things first."
She was about to respond when I heard Edward and Jasper arguing next to her. A second later I heard Jasper's voice through the phone.
"Love?"
I wanted to answer him, but the lump that had moved into my throat stopped me from speaking.
"Alice? Please love, please respond." He begged.
"Jazz." I whispered.
"Oh...Alice! Oh my love where are you? Are you alright?" He asked, I knew that he was panicking.
"Jazz, I'm fine. I will be home in a few hours. I just have to figure out a few things. I'm so sorry I ran from you." I said as the lump returned in my throat.
"I don't care, please just come home to me."
"I will, just give me a few hours please. Will you do me a favor please?" I asked.
"Anything." Jasper replied.
"Tell everyone I'm sorry, tell Edward that I don't blame him...that I forgive him. Will you do that for me please?"
"He heard the entire thing, don't worry. He knows, he wants to talk to you." Jasper said as I heard Edward arguing in the background.
"No Jazz, please. I have to go, tell everyone I'll be home. Jasper, I love you." I said as I ended the call, crushing my phone in my hand.
I laid back down on the rock and cried myself out...if it were possible for me to cry. I released all of the emotions that were built up inside.
I must have been there for a few hours before I calmed myself enough to focus on what as going on now. I saw the pieces of my phone scattered around the rock, tiny fragments laying on the journal.
I reached over, grabbing the journal and shaking the pieces of phone off of it. I pulled my legs up against my chest, the journal resting on my knees.
I opened the book and began reading out loud, even though I was the only one to listen.
It was Dated November 14th, the writing blurred by something.
"Dr. G is acting strange, I know that someone is reading my journal..and I honestly think it's him. He seems to know what I am thinking, or seems to be everywhere I go. I thought it might just be coincidence at first...but now I know that isn't true. It seems like he was protecting me at first, like he was always looking out for me...but now it seems like he is watching me..it makes me nervous.
I had a vision of James returning a few days ago...I told Dr. Gordon about it and since then it seems like I am never alone. Every where I go someone is with me, I can not even go to the bathroom alone. Someone always has an excuse to be where I was. I was sure it was on someones orders but whenever I asked everyone played dumb, like they had no idea what I was talking about.
This afternoon I was walking through the halls when I heard someone call my name from one of the teaching rooms. I turned and walked to the door way, trying to figure out who would have been in the room.
"Mary, could you come in please?" The voice called from the back of the room.
I knew it would be rude to ignore whomever was calling for me, so I took a deep breath and walked into the room.
The first thing I realized was that all of the lights were off in this room, it was like walking into night. The second thing I noticed was a deep guttural sound that seemed to echo off the walls, filling the room with sound.
"I have waited for you." The voice called.
I turned quickly to the sound, finally recognizing the voice....James. As I thought his name he walked out of a shadow, stalking towards me slowly.
"You have been the hardest catch I've ever had." He told me as he came over and put his hands on my upper arms, squeezing a bit too tight.
"Catch?" I whispered, unable to make my voice any louder.
"Yes, catch. You caught my eye the first time I saw you, but he's been doing his best to keep you from me."
"Who? What are you talking about?"
"Oh you haven't figured him out yet...this will be fun." He said as he grabbed me and pulled me against his chest, his hand stretching my head to the side causing a burning sensation in my neck.
"Who?" I asked again.
"Me." I heard from behind me, James let my neck go the strange sounds filling the room once again.
"Alice, please go to your room. Lock yourself in and wait until I come find you." Dr. Gordon said as he walked into the room.
I went to move, to get away but James still had his grip on my neck. I screamed in pain as my neck muscles stretched, burning.
"Let her go." Dr. G told James.
"No...make me." James replied.
Dr. Gordon threw himself at me and in that second James let go. Once I was free I ran out through the door and down the hall to my room. Once in I locked the door behind me, throwing myself on the bed, tears flowing continuously down my cheeks.
What was going on?? Who...what was Dr. G?? Why was I scared?? What was going to happen between him and James??"
That was all that was written...for some reason the journal entry was done. I turned the page making sure that there wasn't another entry on the last page. There was something written there, but it was someone else's hand writing....
I knew I had to go home, I had to tell everyone what just happened. I had to tell them we reached the end of the book, that there was another entry from someone else....that I was sorry. That I loved all of them and would not do this to them again....to beg them to forgive me.