Oh hell yeah. Every day, I prepare for the second that even my friends will be like, "Yeah we're done" out of the blue and then never contact me again. Though in my defense, there's a very good reason this is but I'm going to share it on here because it's very personal but I will say right now that I trust absolutely nobody at first unless they show me I can trust them or I have no choice but to trust them. It's the reason why I prefer to work alone. Because I don't trust people enough to do the right thing on the assignment. I don't trust people with my feelings so a lot of the time, I don't even take romantic relationships seriously enough to ask anyone on a date. It's also easy to break my trust though you usually do that by withholding information from me and I'll just walk away from you if there's no good reason for you now telling me. It's my way of saying we're done usually.
Incredibly so, but more towards myself than others. I never trust that I’m good enough, or that someone will put me into second place the second someone better comes along after I’ve helped build them back up again; That’s why I haven’t been with anyone about three years now. I just want The commitment that I’m scared of.
I do. A past full of toxic relationships and disappointments does that. Their after effects still linger on me a bit, I suppose. At times showing a rather unbecoming side of me to others. It is a situation I'm working on however as letting things as they are will only cause damage and separation from new bonds forming. Have done a considerable amount of progress at this point and continuing to do so !!!!
Fuck yeah. Someone had a crush on me, but when they asked I said, "No sorry" and then they go about trashing me, and when my friends said they would not believe it, all they did was gossip about me 😤