I felt stiff, and I stretched. I slowly opened my eyes; I was in Alexanderâs bedroom. I was fully clothed, that was a good sign. I laid flat on my back.
âYes, I found him on the street,â Alexander mustâve been on the phone. Was he talking about me? There was a pause.
âHe was crying, and I brought him back here. He got into a bad fight with Grey. She kicked him out,â great a recap.
âOkay, I will. Goodbye Dr. Anozi,â Alexander hung up the phone. He was talking to Dr. Anozi. I felt comforted by the fact that the doctor still cared about me. I heard Alexanderâs footsteps creeping closer to his bedroom. He stood in the doorway and looked at me with his warm, brown eyes; it made my heart melt. âI was beginning to think only your prince charming could get you up,â Alexander said grinning. He leaned on the doorframe.
âYou didnât try to get me up did you?â It wasnât like me to say something so spontaneous.
âNo, I thought the sleep would help your mind rework itself into a previous state,â Alexander said.
âHow long was I out?â I asked. By the way my muscles felt Iâm going to guess a while.
âAbout three days. I started to get worried, and Iâve been calling Dr. Anozi,â he said. Wow, three daysâŠIâve been stoned and drunk, but I didnât sleep that long.
âGod, I feel like shit,â I said trying to stand up. Alexander walked over to me, and helped me. I stood, and my ankles and knees popped.
âYou alright there old man?â Alexander asked chuckling.
âVery funny, help me into the living room,â I said. He put my arm around his neck, and walked as I hobbled beside him into the living room. He sat me on the couch.
âDo you need anything?â Alexander asked.
âUh, my meds,â I said. I didnât need to have a schizophrenic outbreak anytime soon. It would be worse now, considering I had so much on my mind. Alexander walked into the kitchen. I looked around the living room for my suitcase. He had laid it in here when I first came. Now where was it?
He entered the room with my pills and a glass of water. I took them. âThanks,â I put the pills in my mouth and took a sip of water.
âHow are you feeling?â Alexander asked concernedly, his soft hand lying on top of mine. I felt the nerves in my hands go wild.
âThere has been worse, yet there has been better,â I said. I didnât quite know how I felt. I wanted to feel bad, to feel raging guilt. I didnât though I felt happy, and secure. Just being here with Alexander in this moment meant the world to me. He studied me for a moment; I looked down. I hated it when people looked at me.
âI love you,â Alexander said picking up my chin to look in my eyes. A shiver went down my spine and my heart melted. I wanted to say it back, but I was speechless. I took a deep, shaky breath.
âI-I love you t-too,â I stammered. I was sure I did, but I was in shock. He kissed me; I felt a tear go down my cheek. Was this my forever, or only a moment that Iâll look back on later? He pulled back and looked at me.
âWhy are you crying?â Alexander asked.
âI want to feel bad, but I donât,â I said.
âFeel bad about what?â his brow furrowed as he looked at me. âThe fight with Grey. I want to feel guilty, but I donât. Iâm happy,â I said, and hung my head as more tears came down.
âThis is what I think you should do. Iâm going to Boston for a few days for a conference. During that time you should go and apologize to Grey,â said Alexander. My heart sank as I heard I wouldnât see him.
âWhat will I say?â I asked. How do you apologize to Grey? She wonât accept it.
âJust say sorry, thatâs all you have to do,â Alexander said, and picked up my chin. He looked me in the eyes. âYou can do this, I know you can.â I was glad to know he had faith in me. For, I did not.
âYes, I found him on the street,â Alexander mustâve been on the phone. Was he talking about me? There was a pause.
âHe was crying, and I brought him back here. He got into a bad fight with Grey. She kicked him out,â great a recap.
âOkay, I will. Goodbye Dr. Anozi,â Alexander hung up the phone. He was talking to Dr. Anozi. I felt comforted by the fact that the doctor still cared about me. I heard Alexanderâs footsteps creeping closer to his bedroom. He stood in the doorway and looked at me with his warm, brown eyes; it made my heart melt. âI was beginning to think only your prince charming could get you up,â Alexander said grinning. He leaned on the doorframe.
âYou didnât try to get me up did you?â It wasnât like me to say something so spontaneous.
âNo, I thought the sleep would help your mind rework itself into a previous state,â Alexander said.
âHow long was I out?â I asked. By the way my muscles felt Iâm going to guess a while.
âAbout three days. I started to get worried, and Iâve been calling Dr. Anozi,â he said. Wow, three daysâŠIâve been stoned and drunk, but I didnât sleep that long.
âGod, I feel like shit,â I said trying to stand up. Alexander walked over to me, and helped me. I stood, and my ankles and knees popped.
âYou alright there old man?â Alexander asked chuckling.
âVery funny, help me into the living room,â I said. He put my arm around his neck, and walked as I hobbled beside him into the living room. He sat me on the couch.
âDo you need anything?â Alexander asked.
âUh, my meds,â I said. I didnât need to have a schizophrenic outbreak anytime soon. It would be worse now, considering I had so much on my mind. Alexander walked into the kitchen. I looked around the living room for my suitcase. He had laid it in here when I first came. Now where was it?
He entered the room with my pills and a glass of water. I took them. âThanks,â I put the pills in my mouth and took a sip of water.
âHow are you feeling?â Alexander asked concernedly, his soft hand lying on top of mine. I felt the nerves in my hands go wild.
âThere has been worse, yet there has been better,â I said. I didnât quite know how I felt. I wanted to feel bad, to feel raging guilt. I didnât though I felt happy, and secure. Just being here with Alexander in this moment meant the world to me. He studied me for a moment; I looked down. I hated it when people looked at me.
âI love you,â Alexander said picking up my chin to look in my eyes. A shiver went down my spine and my heart melted. I wanted to say it back, but I was speechless. I took a deep, shaky breath.
âI-I love you t-too,â I stammered. I was sure I did, but I was in shock. He kissed me; I felt a tear go down my cheek. Was this my forever, or only a moment that Iâll look back on later? He pulled back and looked at me.
âWhy are you crying?â Alexander asked.
âI want to feel bad, but I donât,â I said.
âFeel bad about what?â his brow furrowed as he looked at me. âThe fight with Grey. I want to feel guilty, but I donât. Iâm happy,â I said, and hung my head as more tears came down.
âThis is what I think you should do. Iâm going to Boston for a few days for a conference. During that time you should go and apologize to Grey,â said Alexander. My heart sank as I heard I wouldnât see him.
âWhat will I say?â I asked. How do you apologize to Grey? She wonât accept it.
âJust say sorry, thatâs all you have to do,â Alexander said, and picked up my chin. He looked me in the eyes. âYou can do this, I know you can.â I was glad to know he had faith in me. For, I did not.
this is my first story that i made on here i'm still decideing if i want to make more of this book or not i am still decideing on a tittle name.please do not hesitate to criticize i need it.thank you <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 I Taylor Ann Smith was not happy.I was very mad.How dare them! i thought angrily to myself.how dare them decide who i marry!.this all happened when i came down for breakfast."Good morning mother,good morning farther."i said happily.Mother was cooking eggs and toast while father was waiting."Hello darling"said Mother cheerfully as she sat a plate of eggs and toast in front of me."good morning taylor" farther answered. his plate."what's happening today?"i asked still eating."well.. mom started looked unconfertable...we decided who you were to marry"."What!" i cried almost chocking on my food.
Glance the other way
Rip your heart out
I just don't care anymore
You're useless
And uncaring
You know nothing!
Yet you pretend you do
You're a pretender
A pretender is just a liar in disguise
A pretender is a faker
A pretender hides
A pretender is a maker
Of the dark abyss
You told me once
I told you twice
Now what?
Do we forget the past?
Live for the future?
Or remember and continue on our path?
...Decisions...Decisions...
Left or right?
Up or down?
Wrong or right?
Please give me the answer
For I do not know
Right and wrong any longer
Rip your heart out
I just don't care anymore
You're useless
And uncaring
You know nothing!
Yet you pretend you do
You're a pretender
A pretender is just a liar in disguise
A pretender is a faker
A pretender hides
A pretender is a maker
Of the dark abyss
You told me once
I told you twice
Now what?
Do we forget the past?
Live for the future?
Or remember and continue on our path?
...Decisions...Decisions...
Left or right?
Up or down?
Wrong or right?
Please give me the answer
For I do not know
Right and wrong any longer
Chapter 4: Sunny day
These were the days of peace and happiness.
Days were spent in peace and love.
Jack loved his job, even though he wasn't that patient with children who didn't pay attention on his classes.
But, he knew. He was doing something
important, something useful.
And most of all, he knew that his lovely wife
and beautiful little Gwenny were waiting for him
at home.
Dana was amazing at kitchen.
Jack loved everything she made.
One happy family they were.
Like every morning, Jack would go to work,
and Dana would make a breakfast and some coffee to wake them up.
Morning coffee was something wonderful
for both of them.
After having breakfast, Jack would drink coffee
with Dana, looking at her with the same gentle
and passionate love that never fades.
"I'll see you later, darling." - Jack said and
went to work.
Dana was still sitting and enjoying in the coffee,
watching through the window the sunlight.
She could smell the flowers that were growing
in the yard.
These were the days of peace and happiness.
Days were spent in peace and love.
Jack loved his job, even though he wasn't that patient with children who didn't pay attention on his classes.
But, he knew. He was doing something
important, something useful.
And most of all, he knew that his lovely wife
and beautiful little Gwenny were waiting for him
at home.
Dana was amazing at kitchen.
Jack loved everything she made.
One happy family they were.
Like every morning, Jack would go to work,
and Dana would make a breakfast and some coffee to wake them up.
Morning coffee was something wonderful
for both of them.
After having breakfast, Jack would drink coffee
with Dana, looking at her with the same gentle
and passionate love that never fades.
"I'll see you later, darling." - Jack said and
went to work.
Dana was still sitting and enjoying in the coffee,
watching through the window the sunlight.
She could smell the flowers that were growing
in the yard.
I lied
I lied to them and got caught
I confessed up and told them the truth
but they get more upset
I walk down the dark hallway
into my lonely empty room
I lie on my bed, thinking
I go to move and I can't
I fall down
pain shooting threw me
they walk in
saying I'm faking to make them feel bad
they walk out
leaving me on the ground
crying out in pain
I finally give up
crawl over to the closet
get the gun and cocked it
put it to my temple and pulled the trigger
life...filled with hate
I've chased down all my demons
but it wasn't enough
mistreated,misplaced,misunderstood.
I lied to them and got caught
I confessed up and told them the truth
but they get more upset
I walk down the dark hallway
into my lonely empty room
I lie on my bed, thinking
I go to move and I can't
I fall down
pain shooting threw me
they walk in
saying I'm faking to make them feel bad
they walk out
leaving me on the ground
crying out in pain
I finally give up
crawl over to the closet
get the gun and cocked it
put it to my temple and pulled the trigger
life...filled with hate
I've chased down all my demons
but it wasn't enough
mistreated,misplaced,misunderstood.