Alexander left for Boston yesterday. He left me with spare keys to his apartment. I promised him I would go apologize to Grey. I wasn’t excited about it, but it had to be done. I was going to do it today, the sooner the better.
I sighed as I rose from the leather couch, and took the keys from the hook. I walked to Grey’s house. It looked the same. Her car-well my car that I didn’t take with me-sat in the driveway. She didn’t have to work. I went up to the door and knocked.
I stood there a moment, and waited. I heard footsteps and the door opened. Grey stood looking at me open mouthed.
“Damien, what are you doing here?” she asked seeming board.
“I came to apologize,” she just looked at me. “May I come in?” she waved her hand, gesturing me to come in.
“Make this quick, I have plans,” she said annoyed.
“I’m sorry, Grey. I shouldn’t have said what I did. I did want to leave you, but I didn’t go about it the right way,” I said feeling stupid.
“You’re damn right you didn’t,” Grey snapped.
“I know words can’t do much, so how can I make it up to you?” I asked feeling like an ass.
“Follow me,” she grinned. Grey walked up the steps, her jeans rubbed together as she walked. Her top rode up her body, revealing her waist. I looked away, I wasn’t with her anymore. I wasn’t having regrets; I was just so used to seeing her body.
Grey walked into the bedroom we once shared. She climbed onto the bed and laid on her side.
“Come here,” she whispered seductively. I should’ve known she would play this card.
“Grey, I can’t,” I protested, I didn’t want to cheat on Alexander.
“You said anything, this is my choice,” she said.
“But Alexander-”
“Doesn’t have to know,” Grey stood and pulled me onto the bed with her. She crawled on top of me, and started kissing my neck. Grey began unbuttoning my shirt, and rubbing my abs. I moaned a little.
“Grey stop,” I was becoming weak. No, I couldn’t let her do this, but it felt so good.
“Why,” she bit my ear. I moaned again.
“It’s not right, and I can’t just cheat on Alexander,” I said feeling guilty.
“You cheated on me, what makes him so different?” she asked kissing my neck more. I didn’t reply. The only answer that came to mind would be cruel. She kissed my lips and took off my shirt. I let her do what she wanted to me. I was her slave.
I vowed to confess to Alexander when he came home. I felt bad even as I let her do wicked things to me. Grey kept kissing me, and I fought to hold back my tears. Hold on Damien, it will be over soon enough. I hoped the voice in my head was right. Although, I did not believe it.
I sighed as I rose from the leather couch, and took the keys from the hook. I walked to Grey’s house. It looked the same. Her car-well my car that I didn’t take with me-sat in the driveway. She didn’t have to work. I went up to the door and knocked.
I stood there a moment, and waited. I heard footsteps and the door opened. Grey stood looking at me open mouthed.
“Damien, what are you doing here?” she asked seeming board.
“I came to apologize,” she just looked at me. “May I come in?” she waved her hand, gesturing me to come in.
“Make this quick, I have plans,” she said annoyed.
“I’m sorry, Grey. I shouldn’t have said what I did. I did want to leave you, but I didn’t go about it the right way,” I said feeling stupid.
“You’re damn right you didn’t,” Grey snapped.
“I know words can’t do much, so how can I make it up to you?” I asked feeling like an ass.
“Follow me,” she grinned. Grey walked up the steps, her jeans rubbed together as she walked. Her top rode up her body, revealing her waist. I looked away, I wasn’t with her anymore. I wasn’t having regrets; I was just so used to seeing her body.
Grey walked into the bedroom we once shared. She climbed onto the bed and laid on her side.
“Come here,” she whispered seductively. I should’ve known she would play this card.
“Grey, I can’t,” I protested, I didn’t want to cheat on Alexander.
“You said anything, this is my choice,” she said.
“But Alexander-”
“Doesn’t have to know,” Grey stood and pulled me onto the bed with her. She crawled on top of me, and started kissing my neck. Grey began unbuttoning my shirt, and rubbing my abs. I moaned a little.
“Grey stop,” I was becoming weak. No, I couldn’t let her do this, but it felt so good.
“Why,” she bit my ear. I moaned again.
“It’s not right, and I can’t just cheat on Alexander,” I said feeling guilty.
“You cheated on me, what makes him so different?” she asked kissing my neck more. I didn’t reply. The only answer that came to mind would be cruel. She kissed my lips and took off my shirt. I let her do what she wanted to me. I was her slave.
I vowed to confess to Alexander when he came home. I felt bad even as I let her do wicked things to me. Grey kept kissing me, and I fought to hold back my tears. Hold on Damien, it will be over soon enough. I hoped the voice in my head was right. Although, I did not believe it.
I needed more, more! I threw the book across the dimly lit, wooden attic. The book hit a stack of old newspapers. I tore open yet another book. Nothing would give me my answers.
Why did I feel the need to care for Lucy? Why could I not get Alexander out of my head?
There were pages, and pages of the thought process, but nothing to explain what I felt! Why could no one manage to capture these feelings, and explain them?
A knock on the door interrupted me. “What?” I snapped.
“It is past midnight, Damien. Come to bed,” said Grey through the door.
“I’ll come when I want to. Now, go away!” Could she not understand I was confused, and angry? She possessed such naivety.
“Fine!” Grey yelled. I heard her storm down the steps. Then I heard her bedroom door slam. I let out a puff of air.
Then I threw another book against the wall. I kicked the whole stack of books, and watched as they toppled over. I threw myself onto the floor, and began crying.
Why did I feel the need to care for Lucy? Why could I not get Alexander out of my head?
There were pages, and pages of the thought process, but nothing to explain what I felt! Why could no one manage to capture these feelings, and explain them?
A knock on the door interrupted me. “What?” I snapped.
“It is past midnight, Damien. Come to bed,” said Grey through the door.
“I’ll come when I want to. Now, go away!” Could she not understand I was confused, and angry? She possessed such naivety.
“Fine!” Grey yelled. I heard her storm down the steps. Then I heard her bedroom door slam. I let out a puff of air.
Then I threw another book against the wall. I kicked the whole stack of books, and watched as they toppled over. I threw myself onto the floor, and began crying.
Hey, so this is a poem Ive been thinking of for a long time,please read and comment!
The Spirit
The spirit rushes on,
Swifter than the wind,
To find answers,
To seek the way.
The spirit flows on,
Like the river.
Flowing on to find the ocean,
A home for all its dreams.
The spirit shines on,
Brighter than a thousand suns.
Shining on to clear the darkness,
To find the path.
The spirit lives on,
More eternal than the sea,
Living on to find its home,
Where all the ends shall meet.
The Spirit
The spirit rushes on,
Swifter than the wind,
To find answers,
To seek the way.
The spirit flows on,
Like the river.
Flowing on to find the ocean,
A home for all its dreams.
The spirit shines on,
Brighter than a thousand suns.
Shining on to clear the darkness,
To find the path.
The spirit lives on,
More eternal than the sea,
Living on to find its home,
Where all the ends shall meet.
Memories,
Confusion,
So many thoughts,
The end is near,
The darkness coming,
Now its here,
The show is over,
The lights are off,
We now say goodnight,
Goodbye,
As we begin 2 open the new chapter
It hurts at first,
Will the changes be extreme?
Please, just tell me,
This was only a dream,
I want to go back,
To relive this again,
This high point in life,
It can't end.
The stage lights dimmed,
The leaving spoke,
With happy faces on,
But tears in their eyes,
This show is over,
Now go home.
Confusion,
So many thoughts,
The end is near,
The darkness coming,
Now its here,
The show is over,
The lights are off,
We now say goodnight,
Goodbye,
As we begin 2 open the new chapter
It hurts at first,
Will the changes be extreme?
Please, just tell me,
This was only a dream,
I want to go back,
To relive this again,
This high point in life,
It can't end.
The stage lights dimmed,
The leaving spoke,
With happy faces on,
But tears in their eyes,
This show is over,
Now go home.