Chapter 1:
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My name is Nicole Mason, I'm a Sophomore at Bethal Heights High School. Me and my boyfriend, or should i say ex boyfriend dated since freshman year, and lately i just didn't know what to do with myself. I never had that many friends, but after i started dating Zayn Malik almost every single girl hated my guts. I gave up everything for him and after a year of dating i go over to his house only to find his tounge down Melanie Karras throat.
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I woke up Friday morning deciding i will go to school today. After i caught my boyfriend cheating on me Monday night i really haven't left my room. I just cried myself to sleep wondering why he would do that to me, what didn't i do, was i not good enough.
Maybe i wasn't good enough. I wasn't a double zero like Melanie. I wasn't on the cheerleading squad. I didn't have blonde hair and walk in six inch high heels on every day.
I finally told myself to get up and get ready for school. I went over to my vanity and looked at myself in the mirror, i got out a brush and slowly removed every knot in my long brown hair. I gave up, as i wasn't in the mood to care about what i looked like. I threw on a pair of leggings an oversized Jack Wills hoodie and slipped on my toms. I took a rubber band from my dresser and threw my hair up in a messy bun. As i was brushing my teeth i noticed the white of my hoodie was red on my sleeve, fuck, i tucked up my sleeves and applied foundation to the cuts on my wrist. I grabbed my phone and waltzed down the stairs.
"goodmorning Liam" i sung as i entered the kitchen.
"morning Nicole, long time no see" Liam muttered.
He was clearly concerned, Liam is my brother, he has taken care of me since our parents died last year in a car crash. I started cutting after the accident, and when anything bad happened to me he thought i would attempt sucide. Which i have thought about speaking Zayn was the only person i was living for.
"do you want anything to eat love?" Liam Chirped
"No, I'm fine" i mumbled.
"Nicole I'm worried about you babe" Liam said frowning. I went over and kissed his cheak.
"I said I'm fine Li Li, i promise" i said slapping a fake smile across my face before turning around and walking out of the house.
when i got to school, nobody really acknowledged my existence. I went to my locker to grab my text book for class, as i turned around i bumped into a tall built figure i then noticed his hair. yup Harry Styles.
Harry was the most popular guy in our grade and hung out with seniors Niall Horan, Louis Tomlinson, my brother, and sometimes Zayn, but Zayn preferred being followed around by his slaves. Well at least what i think they are, they do everything for him.
"oh sorry Harry" i piped up.
"It's fine Nicole, relax" he said laughing. He grabbed my shoulders.
"what are you doing tonight?" he asked.
"sleeping." I answered a little too happy about it.
"no your not." he said shaking his head.
"and why is that?" I questioned
"because it's a Friday night.....and I'm having a big party at my house and everyone is going." he stated.
"cool, I'm not" i said breaking his grasp on me.
"Little Liam your going!" he screamed.
"I don't have a ride, sorry" i said quickly starting to walk away.
"yeah you do cause Big Liam is going, see you at 10!" he said in a hyper tone. I guess i was going.
It was 8 and i called my friend Amanda. I waited for her to answer.
"hello bitch!" she said jokingly.
"hey are you going to Styles party?" i asked anxiously.
"yeahh buddy" Amanda sang.
"go with me, please" i begged.
"alright, is that sexy brother of yours taking us?" she questioned.
"eww Amanda, but yeah" i said in disgust.
"alright babe bye" she chirped
"bye" i giggled.
I went over to my closet and pulled a red mini dress on. I then slides on black pumps and detangled my hair and curled it. I applied foundation to my face and my wrist. I lined my eyes dramatically and applied mascara and puckered my lips to apply red lipstick. I grabbed my clutch and headed out to the car. I had to admit i didn't look bad.
Liams mouth dropped open when i sat in the car. "wow...you look......wow" he stated.
"what he means by that is if he wasn't your brother he'd screw you" Amanda whispered in her attempt of a seductive tone.
"Amanda!?!?!" we both said gobsmacked.
"i speak truth." she hummed.
When we arrived at the party i got out of the car and noticed no one was following me. "are you guys coming?" i asked.
"no not yet" i heard Amanda mumble.
"give us a sec babe" Liam grinned.
"you guys are disgusting." i said as i walked forward and into the party.
Inside it was beautiful, Harry clearly had money. Their was a DJ, two floors lights flashing, music blasting, drinks and people everywhere. "wow" i muttered as i made my way to the dancefloor. I froze, unable to speak i felt a tear fall down my face. There Zayn was, not with Melanie but a different skank, Autumn, kissing on her neck as she grinded into him. "you look fucking hot" i heard a voice say from behind me. I felt hot breath on the back of my neck. I knew it was Harry. "Want to make him jealous?" he whispered. "yeah" i said. "follow me" Harry said smirking. He grabbed my hand and took himself and I right in front of Zayn and Autumn. "Harry....i" he cut me off. "dance with me?" he winked. "of course" i giggled.
Toxic by Britney Spears came on. I happen to love this song. I went behind Harry and ran my fingers down his back walking a circle around him before putting one of my legs in-between his and grinder forward. My hand was trapped in his beautiful curls and his hand was on my waist. Our foreheads touched and i could feel his breath on me. "He's looking" Harry whispered into my ear. I glanced at Zayn who was looking at Harry with so much hatred it burned. "showtime" i grinned.
I jumped on Harry, he turned us around and i felt my back arch against the wall. He leaned in and kissed me, at first i was in shock but his soft lips comforted me as i returned the gesture. Surprisingly there seemed to be alot of passion in the kiss and i didn't want i to end. He brushed his tounge against my lip and then went back to just kissing me. We both pulled away breathlessly.
"Nicole, that was amazing, I" he was interrupted by a husky voice. "Yeah and it's never going to happen again" said the voice that then turned around Harry and punched him in the face. "Thats for snogging my girl" he roared, before punching him again. "and that's because you fucking snogged my girl" before storming out of the party. "Zayn wait..." i said in a weak voice, but he was gone.
I then heard Harry groan as i noticed he was on the ground with his nose bleeding. "shit are you okay, I'm so sorry, i never knew he was going to do that, and why does he still consider me his" i felt my lips get pushed into my face. I backed up feeling blood on my face. "it was worth it" Harry winked. I smiled. I didn't know what i was going to do.
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What do you guys think chapter two?:)
let's give this a go:) I would love to know what you guys think:) comment please!<3
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My name is Nicole Mason, I'm a Sophomore at Bethal Heights High School. Me and my boyfriend, or should i say ex boyfriend dated since freshman year, and lately i just didn't know what to do with myself. I never had that many friends, but after i started dating Zayn Malik almost every single girl hated my guts. I gave up everything for him and after a year of dating i go over to his house only to find his tounge down Melanie Karras throat.
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I woke up Friday morning deciding i will go to school today. After i caught my boyfriend cheating on me Monday night i really haven't left my room. I just cried myself to sleep wondering why he would do that to me, what didn't i do, was i not good enough.
Maybe i wasn't good enough. I wasn't a double zero like Melanie. I wasn't on the cheerleading squad. I didn't have blonde hair and walk in six inch high heels on every day.
I finally told myself to get up and get ready for school. I went over to my vanity and looked at myself in the mirror, i got out a brush and slowly removed every knot in my long brown hair. I gave up, as i wasn't in the mood to care about what i looked like. I threw on a pair of leggings an oversized Jack Wills hoodie and slipped on my toms. I took a rubber band from my dresser and threw my hair up in a messy bun. As i was brushing my teeth i noticed the white of my hoodie was red on my sleeve, fuck, i tucked up my sleeves and applied foundation to the cuts on my wrist. I grabbed my phone and waltzed down the stairs.
"goodmorning Liam" i sung as i entered the kitchen.
"morning Nicole, long time no see" Liam muttered.
He was clearly concerned, Liam is my brother, he has taken care of me since our parents died last year in a car crash. I started cutting after the accident, and when anything bad happened to me he thought i would attempt sucide. Which i have thought about speaking Zayn was the only person i was living for.
"do you want anything to eat love?" Liam Chirped
"No, I'm fine" i mumbled.
"Nicole I'm worried about you babe" Liam said frowning. I went over and kissed his cheak.
"I said I'm fine Li Li, i promise" i said slapping a fake smile across my face before turning around and walking out of the house.
when i got to school, nobody really acknowledged my existence. I went to my locker to grab my text book for class, as i turned around i bumped into a tall built figure i then noticed his hair. yup Harry Styles.
Harry was the most popular guy in our grade and hung out with seniors Niall Horan, Louis Tomlinson, my brother, and sometimes Zayn, but Zayn preferred being followed around by his slaves. Well at least what i think they are, they do everything for him.
"oh sorry Harry" i piped up.
"It's fine Nicole, relax" he said laughing. He grabbed my shoulders.
"what are you doing tonight?" he asked.
"sleeping." I answered a little too happy about it.
"no your not." he said shaking his head.
"and why is that?" I questioned
"because it's a Friday night.....and I'm having a big party at my house and everyone is going." he stated.
"cool, I'm not" i said breaking his grasp on me.
"Little Liam your going!" he screamed.
"I don't have a ride, sorry" i said quickly starting to walk away.
"yeah you do cause Big Liam is going, see you at 10!" he said in a hyper tone. I guess i was going.
It was 8 and i called my friend Amanda. I waited for her to answer.
"hello bitch!" she said jokingly.
"hey are you going to Styles party?" i asked anxiously.
"yeahh buddy" Amanda sang.
"go with me, please" i begged.
"alright, is that sexy brother of yours taking us?" she questioned.
"eww Amanda, but yeah" i said in disgust.
"alright babe bye" she chirped
"bye" i giggled.
I went over to my closet and pulled a red mini dress on. I then slides on black pumps and detangled my hair and curled it. I applied foundation to my face and my wrist. I lined my eyes dramatically and applied mascara and puckered my lips to apply red lipstick. I grabbed my clutch and headed out to the car. I had to admit i didn't look bad.
Liams mouth dropped open when i sat in the car. "wow...you look......wow" he stated.
"what he means by that is if he wasn't your brother he'd screw you" Amanda whispered in her attempt of a seductive tone.
"Amanda!?!?!" we both said gobsmacked.
"i speak truth." she hummed.
When we arrived at the party i got out of the car and noticed no one was following me. "are you guys coming?" i asked.
"no not yet" i heard Amanda mumble.
"give us a sec babe" Liam grinned.
"you guys are disgusting." i said as i walked forward and into the party.
Inside it was beautiful, Harry clearly had money. Their was a DJ, two floors lights flashing, music blasting, drinks and people everywhere. "wow" i muttered as i made my way to the dancefloor. I froze, unable to speak i felt a tear fall down my face. There Zayn was, not with Melanie but a different skank, Autumn, kissing on her neck as she grinded into him. "you look fucking hot" i heard a voice say from behind me. I felt hot breath on the back of my neck. I knew it was Harry. "Want to make him jealous?" he whispered. "yeah" i said. "follow me" Harry said smirking. He grabbed my hand and took himself and I right in front of Zayn and Autumn. "Harry....i" he cut me off. "dance with me?" he winked. "of course" i giggled.
Toxic by Britney Spears came on. I happen to love this song. I went behind Harry and ran my fingers down his back walking a circle around him before putting one of my legs in-between his and grinder forward. My hand was trapped in his beautiful curls and his hand was on my waist. Our foreheads touched and i could feel his breath on me. "He's looking" Harry whispered into my ear. I glanced at Zayn who was looking at Harry with so much hatred it burned. "showtime" i grinned.
I jumped on Harry, he turned us around and i felt my back arch against the wall. He leaned in and kissed me, at first i was in shock but his soft lips comforted me as i returned the gesture. Surprisingly there seemed to be alot of passion in the kiss and i didn't want i to end. He brushed his tounge against my lip and then went back to just kissing me. We both pulled away breathlessly.
"Nicole, that was amazing, I" he was interrupted by a husky voice. "Yeah and it's never going to happen again" said the voice that then turned around Harry and punched him in the face. "Thats for snogging my girl" he roared, before punching him again. "and that's because you fucking snogged my girl" before storming out of the party. "Zayn wait..." i said in a weak voice, but he was gone.
I then heard Harry groan as i noticed he was on the ground with his nose bleeding. "shit are you okay, I'm so sorry, i never knew he was going to do that, and why does he still consider me his" i felt my lips get pushed into my face. I backed up feeling blood on my face. "it was worth it" Harry winked. I smiled. I didn't know what i was going to do.
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It's so hard to forget
So late at night,
The darkest memory
That leaves me in fright
The color of crimson,
Is scary yet releasing.
Adrenaline builds since then,
And paranoia's increasing
Evening falls,
Ravens call,
And I see
Darkness over me
Don't walk alone
Don't be lost
I'm chilled to the bone
And that's to a cost.
Blood so warm
Words so cold
Get it over with!
This is getting old.
Midnight falls,
Ravens call,
And I see
Darkness overwhelming me
It's so hazy after that,
That's all I can see,
The short, very vague
Dark memory.
So late at night,
The darkest memory
That leaves me in fright
The color of crimson,
Is scary yet releasing.
Adrenaline builds since then,
And paranoia's increasing
Evening falls,
Ravens call,
And I see
Darkness over me
Don't walk alone
Don't be lost
I'm chilled to the bone
And that's to a cost.
Blood so warm
Words so cold
Get it over with!
This is getting old.
Midnight falls,
Ravens call,
And I see
Darkness overwhelming me
It's so hazy after that,
That's all I can see,
The short, very vague
Dark memory.
The sun is up in the sky
i watch it in the big blue ksky
And i ask myslef,"why?"
i stare at the ceiling.
then i get a strange felling.
and this felling is still being.
and then i ask,"why?"
What do i see in those eyes?
what do i see in you?
even thought i still despise.
i always ask myslef,"why?"
ask me that question,"why?"
i say i dont know
they tell me dont lie
so then i speak th truth.
i know that in my heart
i will always love you
your eyes that shine like he sun
being with you is always fun
one day i will tell you,hun
that you are the only one
sorry,not all the words rhyme.im not the best at making poems,but i wanted to share it with you anyways
i watch it in the big blue ksky
And i ask myslef,"why?"
i stare at the ceiling.
then i get a strange felling.
and this felling is still being.
and then i ask,"why?"
What do i see in those eyes?
what do i see in you?
even thought i still despise.
i always ask myslef,"why?"
ask me that question,"why?"
i say i dont know
they tell me dont lie
so then i speak th truth.
i know that in my heart
i will always love you
your eyes that shine like he sun
being with you is always fun
one day i will tell you,hun
that you are the only one
sorry,not all the words rhyme.im not the best at making poems,but i wanted to share it with you anyways
ON STORMY CLOUDS
I’VE SEEN HIM SIT
THIS DARK ANGEL FAIR
WITH FOLDED AND SHIMMERING
GOSSAMER WINGS
AND MOON BEAMS IN HIS HAIR
WITH BURNING EYES
TO EARTH HE SLIDES
SEEKING TO FEEL THE GROUND
THEN SPREAD HIS
RAVEN FEATHERED WINGS
CASTING HIS MAGICK SHADOW ‘ROUND
THIS ANGELS TOUCH
IS A COMFORTS SONG
SOFT AS A VELVET CLOAK
AND WHEN HE REACHES
TO RIGHT THE WRONG
HIS WORDS ARE FEELINGS SPOKE
ON HOOF AND WING, I WATCHED HIM SAIL
MY DARK ANGEL FAIR
TO SOME ARCANE ABODE
WE KNOW NOT WHERE
TILL HIS NEXT ASSIGNMENT
AND THE FUTURE HAS BEEN FORETOLD
FOR THE LAST FLIGHT
THIS DARK ANGEL TAKES
IS A PIED-PIPERS GATHERING
FOR ALL THE SOULS HE’S TOUCHED
LISTENING TO THE SHADOWY
SONGS THEY’LL NOW SING
I’VE SEEN HIM SIT
THIS DARK ANGEL FAIR
WITH FOLDED AND SHIMMERING
GOSSAMER WINGS
AND MOON BEAMS IN HIS HAIR
WITH BURNING EYES
TO EARTH HE SLIDES
SEEKING TO FEEL THE GROUND
THEN SPREAD HIS
RAVEN FEATHERED WINGS
CASTING HIS MAGICK SHADOW ‘ROUND
THIS ANGELS TOUCH
IS A COMFORTS SONG
SOFT AS A VELVET CLOAK
AND WHEN HE REACHES
TO RIGHT THE WRONG
HIS WORDS ARE FEELINGS SPOKE
ON HOOF AND WING, I WATCHED HIM SAIL
MY DARK ANGEL FAIR
TO SOME ARCANE ABODE
WE KNOW NOT WHERE
TILL HIS NEXT ASSIGNMENT
AND THE FUTURE HAS BEEN FORETOLD
FOR THE LAST FLIGHT
THIS DARK ANGEL TAKES
IS A PIED-PIPERS GATHERING
FOR ALL THE SOULS HE’S TOUCHED
LISTENING TO THE SHADOWY
SONGS THEY’LL NOW SING
19 December
It's been almost a year since Freak died. For a while, people always used to say to me, "I'm sorry." I hated that. I yelled at them, "Feel sorry for Freak! I'm still alive!"
They shouldn't feel sorry for me. Freak taught me what it meant to walk tall. He tought me that remembering is only an invention of the mind, and if you try hard enough, you can remember anything. I try to remember everything Freak told me; and sometimes, it works. Then it slips away.
For a while after Freak died, I went back to being the critter hiding out in Down Under. Then one day, it hit me, and hard. If I had died, I wouldn't want Freak to do what I was doing. I would want him to continue Freak The Mighty.
And that made all the difference.
I try to make Freak proud; maybe I'm even succeeding. I just know that Freak changed the way I saw things, and I owe him that much; to keep Freak The Mighty alive.
-Max-
It's been almost a year since Freak died. For a while, people always used to say to me, "I'm sorry." I hated that. I yelled at them, "Feel sorry for Freak! I'm still alive!"
They shouldn't feel sorry for me. Freak taught me what it meant to walk tall. He tought me that remembering is only an invention of the mind, and if you try hard enough, you can remember anything. I try to remember everything Freak told me; and sometimes, it works. Then it slips away.
For a while after Freak died, I went back to being the critter hiding out in Down Under. Then one day, it hit me, and hard. If I had died, I wouldn't want Freak to do what I was doing. I would want him to continue Freak The Mighty.
And that made all the difference.
I try to make Freak proud; maybe I'm even succeeding. I just know that Freak changed the way I saw things, and I owe him that much; to keep Freak The Mighty alive.
-Max-