Serena
He looked up and I wasn't sure, but I thought his gaze softened a little.
"Can I sit here?" I asked cautiously.
"Whatever," he said, sounding bored out of his mind.
"My name's Serena," I said.
"Shaun."
We sat in silence for the rest of lunch, I was eating nothing. The second the bell rang, he stood up, abruptly and left.
I was left staring in confusion at the doorway I was mostly certain he'd disappeared down.
Shaun
I didn't want to hurt her, yet I didn't want her to be sucked into my depressing world of suffering. What was I supposed to do?
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Every day since my parents had died, I'd been forced into seeing this psychiatrist, Dr Martinez.
She never forced me into talking, and I rarely did.
I stormed into her contemporary office, slamming the door behind me.
Dr Martinez didn't say anything for a while.
"Is there something bothering you, Shaun?"
I'm not sure how, but I started talking and didn't stop.
I told her about Serena. That I didn't know what I wanted. I'd made myself vulnerable, and Dr Martinez didn't interrupt.
Once I was done, I wasn't even sitting in front of her desk anymore. Without thinking, I had gotten up and was staring out the window.
"You've made a lot of progress, Shaun," was all that Dr Martinez said.
He looked up and I wasn't sure, but I thought his gaze softened a little.
"Can I sit here?" I asked cautiously.
"Whatever," he said, sounding bored out of his mind.
"My name's Serena," I said.
"Shaun."
We sat in silence for the rest of lunch, I was eating nothing. The second the bell rang, he stood up, abruptly and left.
I was left staring in confusion at the doorway I was mostly certain he'd disappeared down.
Shaun
I didn't want to hurt her, yet I didn't want her to be sucked into my depressing world of suffering. What was I supposed to do?
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Every day since my parents had died, I'd been forced into seeing this psychiatrist, Dr Martinez.
She never forced me into talking, and I rarely did.
I stormed into her contemporary office, slamming the door behind me.
Dr Martinez didn't say anything for a while.
"Is there something bothering you, Shaun?"
I'm not sure how, but I started talking and didn't stop.
I told her about Serena. That I didn't know what I wanted. I'd made myself vulnerable, and Dr Martinez didn't interrupt.
Once I was done, I wasn't even sitting in front of her desk anymore. Without thinking, I had gotten up and was staring out the window.
"You've made a lot of progress, Shaun," was all that Dr Martinez said.
Time is just a thing.
You can't ever have to little.
You can always have enough.
But when you look at it,
our lives are just a piece.
A piece of what time has to give.
So why not live the fullest,
to what we can.
Why waste it wishing,
on something you'll never have.
Let time do its own thing,
so we can do ours.
You see time is mysterious.
It controls our lives.
And in one quick second,
our time may be up.
So take what you're given,
and give nothing back.
With time nothing is ever what it seems.
You can't ever have to little.
You can always have enough.
But when you look at it,
our lives are just a piece.
A piece of what time has to give.
So why not live the fullest,
to what we can.
Why waste it wishing,
on something you'll never have.
Let time do its own thing,
so we can do ours.
You see time is mysterious.
It controls our lives.
And in one quick second,
our time may be up.
So take what you're given,
and give nothing back.
With time nothing is ever what it seems.
I'm just drifting, drifting down this road.
The dust kicking up behind me,
Just a cloud to hide my past.
My feet don't leave any footprints,
My name never graces those lips
That I'm watching from a distance,
A distance that grows greater
As I'm drifting, drifting down this road.
I'm not on the way to anything great,
I'm just hiding, hiding down in the dark.
The shadows closing in around me,
Just a blanket to smother my past.
My eyes can't see in the gloom,
My voice never breaks the silence
That I keep deep in my heart,
A heart that grows blacker
As I'm drifting, drifting in the dark.