"Daddy where are you going?" a squeak said from the corner. I looked down to see wide blue eyes looking at me with fear. I couldn't just abandon her but I couldn't stay and face the the mess I had just created. "Terra stay out of this!" I shouted at her. But she just kept at it until I finally snapped. I grabbed her by her night shirt and threw her onto the couch with a loud thud. She fell of and hit the cold wooden floor. I looked at her and had the urge to finish off the last bottle of Vodka, which I happily fulfilled. Her cries turned into sobs as she laid there in a ball that filled the apartment loudly. My mind was a drunken sea of chaos and her screams made it worse. I'd had enough! I grabbed the little heap on the floor and pushed her against the wall. My hands wrapped firmly around her throat "Daddy let go please! I'm choking Daddy I can't breathe!" She shrieked trying to wriggle out of my grasp. "Dad STOP IT!" a cry said from behind as a heavy object hit me in the back. I fell on the floor releasing my grip on Terra's neck. I looked up to see Jamie holding Terra in her arms crying in a heap. Her eyes swerved over to me and her once compassionate eyes filled with anger and disgust. "You MONSTER! How could you do this to her! HUH? Are you that sick to try and kill a innocent child?" She bellowed . I stood and looked down at my two daughters. I grabbed Jamie by her long brown hair and dragged her onto the couch. I took my hand and slapped her directly across the face until she was a crying and bleeding cluster on our couch. I looked down at the 14 year old and walked into the kitchen. I rummaged through the cabinets for something to numb the bad feeling that was creeping up. Ah whiskey! I chugged it down in 3 gulps and staggered off back into the living room. "Now where were we?" I say wickedly and look down a Terra who is now laying beside her sister. Tears started rolling down her cheeks. I lunged at her holding her high above my head. She screamed to no prevail as I threw her on top of her sister. Jamie pulled her sister in close the rested her on the floor. Jamie walked up to me and punched me in the jaw. With and even greater force she grabbed the lamp of the table and crashed it above my head and pushed me against the wall. I put my hands on her throat but it did no good. She kicked me right in the man hood and I came crashing down to the ground. She kept kicking me harder each time. Bending over she stopped and looked me into my eyes. "I already called the police. They'll be here any second now." She said charmingly with a smile but it was soon gone. "If you ever EVER touch my sister again the police will be the least of you problems!" And with that she punched me in the face causing the world to go black. I woke up in the back of a car. I looked back to see my wife and my two daughters all lined up. Emily, my wife, still in her robe drenched in blood on the left and little Terra with her night shirt a mess and a black and blue face on the right. And in the middle was Jamie. Her eyes locked on mine with pure hatred as her mental and physical wounds bled out in hurt.
as if you gave me a choice
everything about you i loved
all other feelings aside i shoved
on your every word i hung
and even among
a crowd, only you i see
nowhere else i would rather be
these feelings for you, that are kept inside
i can no longer hide
everything about you i admire
you are all i desire
so kind, so sweet, so passionate
everytime our eyes met
my heart would race
while looking at your smiling face
full of buety, life, and joy
with my emotions you play like a toy
like a wild beast, my emotions cannot be tame
and i don't even know your name